What can I say about myself. Not like anyone is really gonna read this. Well, I would like to think of myself as a good guy although I
can lose my temper quite easily, so watch out a bit. Nothing personal hehe. I love soccer, that's all I can think about right now. I LOVE
SOCCER! What more can I say? Haha!
Not feeling well. Had a headache and fever for most of the day. Wasn't even able to go out to the mall with some of the guys cause of it.
Stayed at home in bed resting. How productive can a person get right?
Anyways...are you a people pleaser? I am, and sometimes, it bites. All I want to do is to be helpful to other people. To make them happy. Making other happy is the most effective way of making myself happy.
But then, there are some people, that no matter how much you try to help them, nothing works. You can not help them and seeing them in trouble pains you so. It hurts not being able to do anything for people you care about. It really does. If I did not care, I wouldn't feel pain. I guess I am really not like that.
All my life, I have worked to become a better person. I have worked to make people proud of me. That's one of my main missions in life. Today, for some reason, I feel I have let them down. I do not know how or why, I just feel it. And how bad it feels. Perhaps, just perhaps, this headache is affecting me more then I thought and these feelings will go away with the headache and fever. Hopefully.
Not doing anything is horrible. You end up thinking of things you would rather not think of. You start visiting memories you would have never wanted to visit again. Its scary. Really scary.
I have always been a kinda emotional guy and every now and then I need a hug. Now's a time for a hug. I feel sort of empty inside, if that makes any sense. During summer, my life does not seem to have a real purpose. During school, I have projects, assignment, reports and the likes but now, I have nothing. I have no purpose and it has hallowed me out inside. Every human being needs a purpose in life, no just during the school days or the vacations. They need a purpose every single day of their lives. I know God has big plans for me, He has put me through so much as a person already that He must have something in mind. I just hope I can see it soon.
I'm still not feeling good so I'll stop this now. Perhaps I'll post something more later or tomorrow. XD
