DAVID BECKHAM - legend and inspiration to us all

!&Thursday, December 21, 2006

Well, whats happened these past few days...nothing. Nothing nothing nothing. XD Got the splint of my foot and starting to walk. Noticable limp and I need the use of cruches once in awhile when it starts to hurt too much. Couple of more weeks and Ill be back to normal, finally. XD

Been feeling really tired lately, strange considering I havent been doing anything physical (unless the finger motions associated with playing XBox count). Guess its just one of those times really. Gonna try to get together with some friends tomorrow and just hang out. Should be a lovely little break from the regular squedule of bumming 24/7. Hey, Im not lazy or anything, I just cant really go anywheres. Still on the disabled list and must act as such. My body isnt up for it yet. Gotta sacrifice my Christmas Break to boredom so as to let my body recover just a bit more. Being able to play soccer will even it out and make it worth it in the end. I hope...if I end up so bano, grr, sadness. Haha, but I doubt that. Pretty sure I cant kick the crap out of my friends as I always have (this is a taunt and has no basis in reality XD). Dont mind me, losing my brain to this...nothingness which have become my Christmas Break days.

Really happy despite everything and I cant stop myself from smiling or laughing, even at the most corny thing ever. XD

Going crazy here! Someone save me! LAWL XD

posted @ Thursday, December 21, 2006

!&Tuesday, December 19, 2006

Still havent done anything relatively productive with my Christmas vacation. Still that ordinary everyday bum.

So I guess I shouldnt talk about what Ive been doing (cause its nothing so far). Maybe Ill talk about what I think (kinda limited now a days but what the heck XD). My life has been fairly enjoyable although everthing is tainted cause of my busted foot. If I could just be play soccer, heaven. XD. Its been almost a whole month! Can you imagine?

Makes you realize how fast time flies. Its already the 3rd trim of school, of my last year in HS. Its almost over. Im going to leave all this behind. Everything Im acustom to will disappear. Ill have to start over and God knows how much I hate having to do that.

Prom is getting closer and closer. In the senior and junior batch there are 6 girls but twice the guys. And everyone is REQUIRED to have a date. Oh my, what a strange night we will have. I dont feel...right, going out with any of the girls in my batch, I feel so close to them. Going to something like this will feel weird with anyone of them. Its like me going with Naomi, its like going out with family. A few of my guy friends already have ideas of who to ask from outside school. I dont really know anyone from outside school to ask. So Ive kinda hit a roadblock havent I? Good friend of mine is trying to hook me up with our mutual friend. She kept on bugging me about it and I finally agreed to keep my options 'open.' I guess it would be okay if I went with this person, it might even be fun. Who knows I guess huh? XD

Lets just see how things go. XD

posted @ Tuesday, December 19, 2006

!&Monday, December 18, 2006

So, I guess Ill talk about what happened yesterday. Our christmas presentation went very well. So very very thankful for that but what can I say, my student council staff were amazing and all credit goes to them.

We all sang wonderfully and everyone seemed to really enjoy. It was an overly good experience and it made for good bonding. XD

After that, us 3rd and 4th years all went to megamall for a bonding session. Our car, consisting of Sir H, David, Jirah, Zach, Kevin and myself arrived earlier then everyone else. So what did we do? Arcade! Woot~! Woot~! XD TIME CRISIS II, havent played in years, but then again neither has Sir H, we both did pretty good and it was great fun. Thing was, it was a quick cash burner *gulp* but it was worth it to see Sir H's lighter side.

Everyone went ice skating after while I was relgated to watch the bags (still got that broken foot, depressing). Everyone was having so much fun and all I could do was watch them....felt really bad and lonely but didnt want to spoil their fun. So there I was, listening to an iPod I stole from Kevs while humming songs to myself. Ended up thinking alot and starting feeling really bad for myself. Dont really know why. Felt really sad and so so alone, sitting there on the bench.
Starting feeling all these mixed feelings, dont really want to talk about them though cause it might come out all strange. You ever feel that your life is defined by all these parameters? That you will only ever be this kind of person. People will only see you as this kind of person? That happens to me alot, Im not complaining, its just frustrating sometimes. Wanting to be something else or something else but confinded by the box people stick you in. XD

Couple of more weeks and I can play soccer again, hopefully. Fingers crossed. Hoping, praying. Its been only like not even a day since I last saw my friends and I miss them already. XD Im such a wuss. Hehe~

posted @ Monday, December 18, 2006

!&Saturday, December 16, 2006

Having been feeling up to par lately. Not really sure why though. Maybe cause I still cant play soccer. Maybe cause I hate feeling disabled. Or maybe its cause of....well I cant think of anything really. XD

Spent the whole week practicing on our Christmas presentation and I must say we sound impressive. I had no idea we could sound so good. But of course, thats from my point of view. Last day of school already tomorrow and as the end approachs, a mixture of feelings come over me. I feel, sad mostly. I dont feel that I am actually ready for college yet. Maybe Im just scared. It takes time for me to feel comfortable in a new place with new people. Ive never really been a people person (although many people will not believe that) and I am actually quite shy. A new school with thousands of new people. Oh my, thats my worst new nightmare. And its coming closer and closer to being a reality, college *gulps*.

Im really going to miss all these friends Ive made. Alot of people say the friends you make in high school are the ones that stick with you, I hope this is true but it really wont be the same, not seeing every single day. Not sharing each and every experience with them.

Although many bad things are happening to me lately, I am actually happier then I have been in so so long. And its cause of my school, my teachers, my family and my friends. So many people who love me so much and me the same to them. Hopefully college wont be too bad. XD

posted @ Saturday, December 16, 2006

!&Sunday, December 10, 2006

Life's been a bum to me really. Not really into it today. Tests tomorrow and its raining.

Usually the rain makes me happy, I really enjoy the rain but right now, to me, its a curse. I cant get my foot wet cause of the splint. Really sucks cause I love being out in the rain. Its a wonderful liberating feeling. People always say stay out of the rain, you'll get sick but sometimes you take a chance, just to brake the rules and risk getting sicks just to have that special moment when everything feels cool and perfect. Thats what the rain can do to me. Funny how things can change from a blessing to a curse in no time at all.

Zach and them had a soccer festival today, I watched it and they did pretty well. 3rd place, which is a big improvment for us. It did rain and for some reason, I decided to defy the rules just this once more, even with my splint. Now Im feeling a bit feverish but I gladly paid the cost, just to see the boys play and to root them on. I want to play soccer so so badly. I want to be there for my team, not on the sidelines in the rain wishing, just wishing and not doing. Wishing is nothing compared to actually doing something. Sigh, so 'emo' huh? Hehe, nope, dont think so. XD

Gotta study for a test tomorrow, Geology *gulp*, not my favorite test. I do well most of the time (no idea how) but its really alot of work to study, and today is not a day for hard work. Today should be a day to bum! Im a bum! Woot~Woot~!!!

I want to be a bum but then I cant. My parents always go through my head everytime I want to slack off. My parents always pushed me way past my limits and its cause of them I have grown to be the person I am now. I love them for that and therefore can not bum off, not now and not never.

Guess that means I should get going huh? XD

posted @ Sunday, December 10, 2006

!&Friday, December 08, 2006

All my tests are almost done. Just one last, Geology *gulp*. Its not that I have a hard time with geo, I actually get pretty good grades in it, its just that its so much memorization and stuff. So many terms plus, Im kinda too lazy to study all that much. Okay, its my fault too but come on, rocks...how...intresting. LAWL.

Ive done pretty well in all my tests so far (big relief).

People problem, I am so close to knocking off this guys head. So freaking close...I would have already, if I wasnt still injured (yup, still injured even till now *sigh*). Plus, its cause of this injury that hes pissing me off. Cause he knows I cant get back at him...YET. Just you wait punk.

I feel that for some reason, my friendship with two people whom were very close to me kinda...went back in time. As in, to when we first met. There is an akwardness between us, and I dont understand why they do this to me. I havent done anything, Ive just been myself and thats always been enough. Am I suddenly not good enough for you people? Hmm? Hmm?

Sigh, people will be people. Just gotta get by them. XD

posted @ Friday, December 08, 2006

!&Sunday, December 03, 2006

The big typoon cancelled school and then a holiday followed. 4 days of no school! Woot woot! Time for play, fun and maybe a bit of studying.

Ended up just being a big bum. Haha, didnt study that much and now I am cramming. Guess thats just how I am. Crammer crammer crammer. LAWL XD

posted @ Sunday, December 03, 2006