What can I say about myself. Not like anyone is really gonna read this. Well, I would like to think of myself as a good guy although I
can lose my temper quite easily, so watch out a bit. Nothing personal hehe. I love soccer, that's all I can think about right now. I LOVE
SOCCER! What more can I say? Haha!
Okay, I am here safe and sound. Feeling a bit down buts that's a long story. Ill get into it a bit later perhaps. Its around 6 in the morning here but Ive been up since around 3am. Woke up and could not go back to sleep. Great thing though, they have a few 24hrs football channels. Amazing!!! Haha XD The sun came out earlier so I decided I might as well do something and update this thing.
Not really up for talking about the trip. Horrible just like I imagined. Hate flying, especially the feeling of the plane dropping a few feet and that instance of free fall even for just a moment. Makes me so unsettled. This is also why I do not think I will even be able to take roller coasters. Yeah I know, I'm a wuss sometimes.
I enjoy typing here on this PC in the den that I'm staying in. It makes this smooth noise and makes it sound like I'm typing alot faster then I really am. Big shocker to me, its spelled 'a lot' not 'alot.' Swt, haha. Ive already got 'alot' integrated into my typing and its automatic already. Tsk tsk, americano pa ako noh? Haha. You would think with english being my only real language that I would have mastered it. Think again, being american has only allowed me to take speaking english for granted so my vocab and spelling is wack sometimes. Wack as in messed up, not as in Wacky Torres.
Not sure what I want to do today, Grandma wants to take me to the mall and go shopping. I'm up for it, excited to see the kind of football merchandise they got there. Yup, I'm a jock, so sue me.
Okay, I run out of smart witty things to talk about. Time for the serious. So, seriously, this trip has come at a very bad time for me. Few days ago was the first year anniversary of my mom's passing away. Did not make it easier that while I was on the flight, after 11hours of horror I heard the flight attendant wish the cabin 'a happy mother's day.' It was mother's day and it was a year since I'd had one. Strange thought to say the least. To say more it was upsetting. Almost a day of traveling by yourself with all that time to think does not help the situation really. I am feeling a bit better now but do miss my 'support group.' My support group are all my friends, family and the likes who just by being there and being themselves can cheer me up and for a moment or two help me forget the bad things.
I have dealt already with the death of both my parents. It was God's will and having faith makes me realize that you do not always need an answer. But trusting God and believing that everything happens for a reason does not mean I can not have my own personal moments of sadness. And why not? It was a sad thing that happened and I feel that I have the right to. I answered a friend with this, 'I'm going to get through today and then tomorrow and the days after that till the very end cause my parents would not want me to not live my life cause I still mourn the loss of theirs.' Inspiring words to myself haha. XD I could be my own shrink.
Teacher Ana gave birth recently. Sadly though I was not able to visit but will make it a priority once I get back to visit her. I was waiting for the longest time for Teacher Ana to have this baby and I am so happy for her as I know that they have been looking forward to this for so so long. I was hoping that she would have had it sooner so I could have stopped by but babies decide on their own when to come out and nothing I say or want will change that? Haha XD
I'm hungry, gonna grab something out of the fully loaded ref. Be right back.
Okay, back but now with a handful of seedless grapes. :)
It's now 6:13 in the morning here meaning its exactly the same over in the Philippines only 6:13 in the evening. Funny though that no one is online in YM. Would love a chat really. Did people suddenly decided to go to sleep early, as in super early? I usually do wake up around this time but grandma and grandpa mike are still fast asleep. Wonder to what time I will be alone.
Doesn't matter. I enjoy being alone, for the meantime at least.
Not sure what to do now, guess I'll see what's on TV. Hoping I have a great day today to cheer myself up. I will try to post later after the day is through and through. See yah. XD
